From a email to Beth:
About a hour or two ago, around 7:00 I called Heather. Id' been thinking about it. It wasn't a up to date call, I didn't talk about why I hadn't talked to her in months. I just called and kinda said hi.
It was weird but I guess, ever since my cousin died. I watched all those people go to that funeral and drop whatever their hatreds were. So I guess, I'm just saying hi to her, and the ball is in her court.
Chances are I might not talk to her again anytime soon. And if I do, she'll probably turn into that person I didn't like. But I feel good knowing, at least I gave it one last chance.
I can never forgive her for how she treated us. But I'll give her one chance to start over I guess.
Beth thinks I'm a great and amazing guy for doing that. Maybe I am. Or maybe I just realized sometimes you gotta let things ride. Bury the ax, or something. Anyway I guess I'll update that situation later.
Speaking of Beth, she continues to be a hottie all the guys want. She gets flirted with every day, thinks its her job. I think maybe its cause....She's beautiful. But I mean that. Fuck those guys flirting in cars.
When she was in town a while back she had me show me a picture of my X. I dunno if it bothered her or not. It took me about 20 mins to find one, the only one I have as a matter of a fact. Which I guess is a shame, I had a nice one of her but she took it back and gave it to someone else. UGH, that girl did me so wrong. NONE of that is the point however so let me get to the point....I had forgotten what she looked like. I mean, I had a tiny image in my head. I wasn't real accurate. I dunno if Beth was impressed or whatever cause she hasn't said anything about it. BUT the real point is, the only photo I have is from one of those photo booth things, and Beth and I JUST took one that looks a lot the same. When I realized that I was like "UGH" and I'm sure Beth thought the same. I mean, it almost looked as though I took those pics with all my GFs, which I didn't. But I felt dumb cause not long before I had begged Beth to take one of those with me.
The point of all this? I had mostly forgotten the girl who I first slept with. It made me feel good, cause all I think about is Beth. And our experiances together, as if they were my first. Which if your counting LOVE, they are.
I couldn't remember this girls face, and I know nearly every part of Beth like the back of my hand. Or tounge rather. HA!
Valentines is coming up, Beth has went all out for this holiday so far. I know she has. I really haven't yet. I will, but I plan on us having a nice dinner for sure. I got a resteraunt picked out. Other then that, I haven't found the things I want yet to get her. But I know we'll both make each other feel super special. It'll be super special just to be with her.
MY FIRST VALENTINES WITH A GIRL! YAY!